I planned on visiting my boys in Colorado. It’s not the right time. I need to be home. My kids will be okay without me — but I’m not okay without them. I need to see my boys. I need to see that they are okay. It’s so hard sometimes to make the right choice. I know I need to be here right now. I know I need to be where I am needed. But it hurts to want to be with with my boys that don’t really need me, but would love if I were there to do a little extra for them. I will see them soon…. but not soon enough.